Dear God,
I have a friend named Tim. In fact, I think you know Tim pretty well, and he knows you pretty well. I talked with him today for the first time in months, since we’ve both been away. Father, it was the best conversation I’ve had in years, and it was only 20 minutes of conversing.
God, Tim inspires me. Just talking to him on the phone and hearing the condensed version of his summer and the amazing things you worked in him and the accomplishments you brought him to inspires me.
It’s bitter sweet. It’s so inspiring. It’s beautiful. It’s your plan for all Christ-followers in action. But it also hurts my heart. I don’t know why, but ever since talking to him, I feel like crying and I don’t know why exactly. I think it’s because Tim is living out the Christian lifestyle that I dream about living, but constantly fall short of. I’m not saying he’s perfect. I know he’s not. But I’ve never met some who seeks knowledge and skill with such joy more than Tim. Even if it means being super busy and having a huge workload, he is never anything but joyful, happy, and excited about life. He works hard, and he still volunteers at church and commits himself to people and his spiritual community, while doing a TON of school work, practicing, and having a girlfriend.
I just….I don’t know. And even what he was telling me about his summer; how you gave him like practically everything a young musician could dream of: managing famous producers, a great paying internship, a workplace and home right near the beach in L.A., gigs and recording opportunities every day, a church to be involved with, a vehicle, business meetings with Kanye West’s managers, and a job offer that would pay enough for him to make it his career for the rest of his life and afford a home on his own, etc. And then you asked him to turn it all down so that you could teach him spiritual abundance….and he didn’t hesitate to say yes.
Father, could I do that? Am I capable of that kind of trust, commitment, and risk? I want to be. I strive to be. I want to be able to get my priorities straight and realize it’s not about worldly success, but following your voice and your call, all for your glory, NO MATTER WHAT.
But Lord, how can you trust me with an abundant musical ministry if I can’t even be trusted with the little things in life?
God, strengthen me, empower me, help me . This world needs more Tims. I want nothing more than to make Tim my closest and best friend. Someone whose life is defined by willingness, joy, encouragement, and crazy humility. Someone whose lifestyle itself would be a daily challenge for me and would build me up in my walk.
Father, continue to bless him. Thank you for him, and thanks that I get to see him so soon.
Love your son,
Ty Sharron